Hello everyone!
The semester is off to a bumpy start, sort of. Up until a few days ago I was on top of things and everything was going fine. It’s probably too early for me to be worrying over this but the thought of graduation and finally going out into the real world has me scared to death for what is to come in my future. I am scared that I will not find a job, get a start on my career, and let myself and everyone around me down. I am scared that I will not succeed in accomplishing my goals. Sometimes I just want to throw in the towel and give up on school because I do not feel good enough. But then I think to myself it would be foolish to give up now when I have come so far. My older peers were right when they warned that college only gets harder, it might seem like less work at times, but the effort that has to be put in to get a good grade is so much more! Last spring semester I was finally able to get on the Dean’s List for the first time ever, and I’m really hoping that can repeat itself this semester. Thankfully that goal seems attainable at the moment. All my classes have been going well so far except the exam I took for one yesterday has me a little anxious. It was an exam with the majority of questions being essay ones. Some questions were difficult to answer, they were the type of questions where I needed to organize and see how I was going to put my thoughts down. The time limit of an hour and fifteen minutes was not in my favor because sadly I am not that type of person that gets their thoughts in order quickly. But other than that everything is looking good. I have also begun the search for my internship that I will need as a requirement for my major to graduate. I had sent my police reserve application to the Minneapolis Police Department back in mid-August, but I never got a word back. Now I am exploring other options which Brea is helping me with! There is a government and non-profit job fair coming up at campus in the next few weeks which I also plan on taking advantage of. There is so many things I have to care of this semester in order to be fully prepared for my final semester. Sometimes I do not know where to start…but we’ll see how everything plays out for me.
stephanieortizs 